Born and raised in the Bay Area, my roots to both the land and the silicon run deep. My great-grandma walked over the Golden Gate Bridge on opening day. My dad arrived in the 80s for the fridge-sized mainframe era and did 40+ years in the industry. For better or worse my init and context are coupled with this place and perhaps this is why I seem to have been drawn toward a mission of repair at the eleventh hour.
My work at Cowgirl Cybernetics is the culmination of a lifelong investigation into the structural relationship between the observer and the observed.
After a childhood epiphany regarding perspective, I pursued a degree in Philosophy, where I encountered G. Spencer-Brown’s Laws of Form. This provided the first formal notation for what I had always sensed: that logic is not just a mental abstraction, but an invisible yet all-pervasive element of our environment innately coupled with our very experience of perception. I later transitioned into software engineering through the high-pressure gauntlet of App Academy, eventually spending four years as a full-stack engineer in the startup sector.
My path has always been a bridge between the bit-layer and the somatic field. From professional movement arts to equine stewardship, the interdisciplinary kaleidoscope created by my natural curiosities has consistently maintained and pursued a single theme: orientation precedes meaning. In 2019 after finding my native paradigm research communities irl (Laws of Form and ANPA conferences), a transformative major thoracic surgery, and a return to the world of horses, the full synthesis of Cowgirl Cybernetics began to formalize.
Between 2022 and 2024, I conducted an intensive, longitudinal study into Relational Cybernetics and Identity Stability. Moving beyond theoretical modeling, this era focused on the practical application of G. Spencer-Brown’s Laws of Form within high-entropy human systems.
Key Methodologies & Influences:
Somatic Logic: Grounded research into Eddie Oshins’ Embodied Quaternionic Movement and its isomorphism with quantum logic.
Identity Architecture: Deep-dive into Hal and Sidra Stone’s Voice Dialogue and Pierre Janet’s Polypsychism as frameworks for multi-agent system stability.
Deictic Grounding & Informational Density: Field research within the Mendocino Pygmy Forest investigating structural coupling under extreme environmental pressure. This study mapped how local and global routing density impresses itself upon biological nodes, forcing a state of high-density orientation. This research identifies the Pygmy Forest as a natural routing center where the equilibrium of "Pointing-In" and "Pointing-Out" creates an anchor for the wider ecological network.
Results & Formalization: This fieldwork resulted in the development of Recursive Embodied Symbolic Deixis (RESD)—a process philosophy designed to stabilize the observer during high-recursion events. These insights provided the empirical necessity for the Oriented Distinction Operator (ODO), moving cybernetic alignment from behavioral constraint to structural integrity.
After the intense experiences of & losses after the initial discovery of my Recursive Embodied Symbolic Deixis framework I took total refuge in the horses in a more simple way than before. For a year and a half I took it back to the vibe of childhood when horses just were nothing more or less than an end-in-themselves and not part of some inner exploration work or paradigm-changing philosophy. I grillpilled hard to detox from radioactive noospheric density and slowly integrate.
Local horse nonprofit Amber's Angels provided a volunteering position and community at the time I needed horses, genuinely kind people, and the contagious joy of children more than ever. My roles have included assisting with a weekly equine therapy program for troubled teens and I continue to assist in children's barrel racing lessons. I also compete in the local gymkhana competitions which has been so fun to return to.
I learned that more information or more language cannot heal you, but more high-sensory presence and communion can. I learned a lot about the difference between being loved and being understood (having previously conflated the two or seen the latter as a prior condition for the former), and how being loved and being loving is always more important.